A letter from my Love

Today I again received your letter. It was another addition to the already heaps of letters accumulated in my cupboard. The same letter drenched with rants. Don’t you get tired of writing the same piece of shit? I do not want to open them. Do you need something else to write? The same allegations on me. The same questions. Why did I not opt for you? Why I decided to run in the middle of all the commotion. Why have you not moved on?

It has been 3 years. Why have you not considered moving on? It is all useless. In the last letter, you again asked, "Why was I betrayed?"

If only you had spent this much of your grey matter, you would have known why I left you. About this betrayal, it was not me who betrayed you. But it was you, who betrayed himself.You abandoned yourself and so everyone abandoned you. If only you were true to yourself, if only you had prepared well for all the situations rather than daydreaming, we would have ended up together. But at that time, you were busy in meaningless things. You were eluding from all this. In every thought of yours, you were deciding and praying not to confront the duel. You were acting like a scared cat. That is why it all happened to you. Not preparing your notes, not calculating the exact formula, and thinking of scenarios to escape everything was all you did in those days. In the end, you met your destiny. You blamed me; you blamed your fate, but have you ever thought of blaming yourself? This is what you should understand. It was only you who abandoned yourself. If you had been honest with yourself and had not given up, things would have been different. It is the reason why you are not among my students, and this is the reason you are not under my domes.

It is said it is not God or luck who abandons a man, but it is always the man who abandons himself. A meaningful life is the life of not giving up on yourself and remaining true to yourself. The same case is with you. The same happened with you and instead of mending your thoughts and getting your life back, you started your blame game. The blame game, soaked with claims that I was the one who betrayed you. Dear! I still wait for you. I still remember your dreams with me, Your arrival has brought a life to my old, lifeless gardens. I wanted you to be with me. But something else happened. It is not time for another blame game. I pray the path you now take will be free of all the traps and hurdles. I pray all the odds to capitulate in front of you. The wind follows your way, the hope never leaves your side, and valour sits on your shoulders. I pray you reach your home safely. I pray no sadness ever touches you. With my prayers, I wish you all the best for your journeys. But in all this, please do not abandon yourself.

Love,
Kemc